What if I didn’t have to lift off
to try and compensate
for the time I spent in the subterranean
nor to explain or make excuses for when
I disappear or fade into the background.
What if I didn’t have to grow larger than life
to make sure that I’m visible, that I matter.
What if I just stay here for a while
in body in mind in tact
with my rhythms.
not absconding or disappearing
not charging up and out
When I feel out of touch or
like I’m beginning to lose the thread,
I remember to stay.
I call upon the human and plant allies
who remind me to stay planted
because they too are in this remembering
they too are learning how to stay
And when we begin to leave
into the scrolling, the smoking,
the drinking, the numbing
the “other, we place a hand on the others’
shoulder and beckon them back inward
closer toward ourselves.
Pam is a Jewish, Queer woman who lives with Bipolar II. She has journeyed through her inner landscapes via movement/embodiment practices, writing, and therapy (as both client and practitioner). Throughout and following copious unsatisfactory and harmful experiences within the mental health and medical model, she continued to turn to the page. Writing has always been one of her embodiment practices– a place where body and mind could find a more harmonious rhythm. Her intention is for her works to reach people from this place of inhabiting the body to invite them into a space of belonging within them selves (especially those of marginalized identities) and to their place here in this world, especially the natural world. Learn more about Pam and reach out at: http://www.embodiedwaywithpam.com | IG: @embodiedway_Pam
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